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Rowedahelicon
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Inspired by a certain snake friend, trying to get into the habit of just drawing stuff, even just doodles, to help sort my brain out.
"Things are pretty different these days." "I find myself looking at my paws a lot. They feel softer, they look softer. They're gentle, and smooth."
"But I also look at myself in the mirror a lot. It's a struggle because I don't look like how I want to yet. And it's scary because so much of it is just waiting and seeing. But in a way, it's nice that I at least care about it finally."
I feel present, here, alive, seen. In ways so strong I wonder so much about how I ever got here before. Trying to live as the real me is still like living as a new person, which is scary. I'm still trying to figure out who the real me is. I've taken a lot of time going back through old memories, trying to process things I never could before. The back and forth over it all with my family has been a tremendous strain. But I am surrounded by people who love me, and I the same for them. So no matter what, I will be ok. And I need to be ok, because I have so much left to give to this world.
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June 28th, 2026 @ 1:09 PM EDT